Tuesday, October 18, 2005
'The thrill of excess'
I like this phrase. And it has absolutely no relation to the content of this entry.
Anyway a thousand apologies to all of you.. My fingers were a bit itchy so I changed the template for the blog.. and my apologies especially to Debbie because the tagboard has been deleted. Oops. Please insert another tagboard here.
I was quite tempted to change the blogskin to the shocking pink one.. but I don't want to spoil my eyes lah.
So. Let me moan about my life in general.
I think I am born with low EQ and auditory processing deficits. I find it hard to pay attention to what people are saying for more than 15 minutes. I also cannot provide you with an expected sincere response.
As luck would have it, I chose to take up something which requires me to listen empathetically. I'm not that stupid lah so when people talk I will nod my head vigorously in agreement. When I'm in a lousy mood I will even frown to give the impression that I think hard enough to dispute what you say.
I actually think I'm quite good at it. But it's extremely exhausting to try to guess the kind of non-verbal reaction you are looking for. Imagine doing that for 8 hours daily.
So here I am, thinking and rethinking why I am doing this. But it's a bit too late to look back anyway.
Slips do occur here and there, like when my supervisor thanked me for helping out, I said, "No lah. I'm on attachment. If I don't help out, I would have failed already."
And another time when my supervisor gave me an unacceptable grade for one of the components of my attachment evaluation, I said, "I don't think that's very fair .. (pauses to point finger to myself) .. to me" to her face when my lecturer was present as well.
And the time when I typed 'friends' as 'fiends' and I thought it was hysterically funny.
I still find it funny.
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Xiu Juan out
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