Wednesday, August 31, 2005
Gah! (Warning: An entry centering on the refined art of complaining)
I was so frustrated this morning that I felt dizzy. Then I had this weird trobbing headache. I thought my brain was haemorrhaging!
Oh my goodness. My FYP (final year project) is driving me nuts! I cannot think, I cannot sleep, I can eat but I don't think I can digest properly, and I'm shaking my leg like siao because my anxiety levels have hit a record-high. Ironically, my team is liasing with IMH for the project, so I can actually join in the therapy sessions while doing my project.
As of now, our project title is
"Preliminary study of the predictive validity of Valpar 17 to determine suitability of clients with enduring mental illnesses for vocational rehabilitation program"
Wah lao! Isn't it an incredibly sian topic?! The kind that you'll need 1 minute to decipher, and the next minute to drift off to sleep while we painstakingly present to those ingrates.
Hai. Am starting to feel like a lost sheep being led into the valley of doom. What if I fail my FYP? Then NHG will revoke my sponsorship, NUH will kick me out, and I will have to pay them... 30,000 freaking dollars!
No no no! I shall not focus on negative thoughts! I must rephrase them so that they somehow become positive thoughts that lead to an overall sense of well-being. Let me see.. ok,
- FYP is hard, but I feel challenged by the project. Being challenged is a good thing because you can only grow when you are challenged.
- My lecturers have left us to die in this silly project, but it also means that our group have a lot more autonomy in determining the direction of this project.
- I have no life other than the one right in front of the computer, but it's ok because I get to fulfil my role as an ex-classmate and post exceedingly long, boring entries.
- I'm snacking a lot more than usual but it goes to show that my brain is working REALLY harder than usual, hence its increased glucose uptake.
Have you ever thought that you may be insane?
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Xiu Juan out
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